We need to talk about depression...
I've endured it several years ago (2007-2009)
It's like a gigantic black hole or cave that has no end, it's definitely real... Those who've never been in clinically diagnosed depression have no idea...
It's as real as your daily life or world, and to those in it they feel as there's no escape. Some are lucky enough to get a type of help that actually helps, I was one of those.
A Christian nurse I was pointed to by a counselor at a church I once played for, at the first meeting I had with her put me on different medications, that within 2 days made the black hole of depression nearly disappear. I also started sleeping again, which hadn't happened for 2 years...Is there some side effects to medication? Yes, but compared to the never ending black hole it's like waking up out of the worst nightmare you've ever had...
People around me ( Some) said I was making up clinical depression, that it was all in my head...even a doctor at my huge HMO said it was all in m head, with my relative agreeing with him while we were sitting in his office, in the same room...I guarantee you it's not all in your head.
As a Christian, I think there's a spiritual aspect to depression, or what the Bible calls "A spirit of heaviness" (Isaiah 61:3) because that's exactly what it feels like...
Thankfully I was able to pull out of clinically diagnosed depression with the help of a Christian nurse who was extremely wise, knowledgeable, and perceptive.
Unfortunately not everyone does...and a few get to the point where they see no way out.
If you feel like there's no way out...that the black tunnel will not end there's help. Try a different doctor, or a different therapist, or try a different medication because they are not all the same. You have to find what medication works for you...
If people around you are saying it's all in your head you should probably get away from them, at least for awhile, because they are not helping in any way, and in fact may be making it worse...
And Yes, pray like crazy and get around people who will pray with and for you, because it could be your life. Thanks.
I'm just the Sax Player...
